"As I walked out the door toward the gate that would lead to my freedom, I knew if I didn't leave my bitterness and hatred behind, I'd still be in prison." - Nelson Mandela
I love this quote. And I have a few questions for you:
What are you hanging onto from the past that serves you poorly? Why are you keeping that awful story alive? Don't you know that that negativity (and even grudges and resentment) impact your thinking and behavior? Holding onto it, repeating its story - is it helping you get the results that you want? Have you considered setting yourself free?